Gearing up

Hospital bag is PACKED!  For the little nugget and I anyway.  Scott's on his own.  Sooo, basically there will be a post in the near future about how aggitated I am that, while in labor, I had to wait on Scott to pack a bag for the hospital stay.  ::grumble::

Anyway, I'll have clean panties and stretchy yoga pants, so I'll be a happy lady.  I'm SO excited to not be pregnant anymore, but I keep having to mentally remind myself that I'll still look pregnant.  Do those women exist that walk out of the women's center looking like they just taught an aerobics class?  Yes.  But they are a severe minority.  And I hate them.  So.  I have stretchy clothes for post baby recovering. 

I am also reminding myself not to get too ahead of myself.  That I know what it feels like to be recovering from birth.  Ow and all that.  I remember that it feels like a nuclear bomb went off in your no-no region, but honestly, I'd rather deal with that trama than the misery I'm in now.  I know how to deal with that.  And that pain is pretty sectioned off... boobs and crotch.  Right now, my pain is EVERYWHERE.  Internal, external, mental...  ugh.

But, we're ready.  I think.  As far as having things goes.  We have all the things we need at home to take care of an infant.  So that first few days we can lock down and just reaquaint to having an infant in our lives.  Those first few days can be stressful.  I'm hoping not to compound that with having to "run to the store" for this and that.  I want everything on hand.  For the first week, anyway. 

I love that I'm not scared.  Not even of the pain.  The thought of makes me cringe a little, but I'll survive.  I'm certainly not going to underestimate it.  And that's what made it so bad before, I think.  Not realizing how intensely painful it all is in realitiy. 

I know what to expect (and to what degree to expect things not to go as planned). 

I know what I want and need during (like, an epidural) and after (pain meds and dermoplast). 

And I feel like I know what I'm doing.  I probably don't, but that's not what matters.  :)

*Side note*: Seriously, if you've never had a baby vaginally or didn't know before, dermoplast is a NECESSITY after delivery.  If I had to pick ONE thing that made recovering easier, it'd be that.  It soothes the savage beast.  It makes sitting possible.  It makes the remaining rubble of your lady bits feel like they actually CAN be normal again one day.  ♥ Dermoplast.